Currently {Angsty Retrograde-y May}

Currently

Currently… I’m going through something, I’m not sure what it is. I’m just going through it. I don’t want to let the low tide pull me in. The waves are crashing over me, they’re not hurtful, they are simply cleansing me, perhaps they’re gearing me up for this new chapter. There are moments where I feel like I’m one with those waves; loud, silent, calming, volatile (there are 8 different definitions of this word choose whichever you’d like), and refreshing.

 

(Thank you, Shelly, for introducing this song to me.)

Mercury in retrograde?  Thank goodness it’s almost over. Well.. if that’s even it.

Currently, I’m learning what I’ve always known, life moves on with or without you. Life doesn’t slow down for you to catch up, waiting for the right time is the wrong way to manage time. Yup, I’ve done that, and I’m done.

🙂

Currently, I’m listening to Beyonce and wondering why it took me so long to get on the Beyonce bandwagon. She has me all inspired right now.

via GIPHY

I think I may make Flawless my new anthem (I know it’s an older song, but hear me out), because I need to remember I too can be flawless, I need to drink from the confidence fountain. I also really like hearing Chimamanda Ngozi Adichie’s part in the song. Annnd now I’m listening to Chimamanda Ngozi Adichie’s TedTalk.

Currently, I’m getting back into my creative outlets, because I need them.

Morning meditation. Coffee & Sharpies ?

A photo posted by Mrs.AOK (@mrs_aok) on May 15, 2016 at 1:09pm PDT

Currently, I’m missing the beach, I think I need it again. I’ll be there this weekend. YES!! Hopefully, my spending Monday morning in second grade and sharing the sharing bird in sharing circle with a little guy (not my guy) who kept wiping his nose with his hands doesn’t derail my weekend plans.

Currently, I’m realizing I’m not a “fake it ’till you make it” gal. I’m a let’s be real gal. I’m being completely transparent here. Life is good. I’m good. I’m just in a place or disarray. I live good. I love hard. I’m loved. Happy with my tribe. I’m not in love with my geographic location. I’m fighting some angst. Tired of being consistently inconsistent when it comes to the blog. I’d love to get out of debt and have my student loan disappear. I’m ready for us to find our forever home. I’m happy the sun is shining today. Apparently, I need sun and I have fallen in love with doughnuts.

A photo posted by Mrs.AOK (@mrs_aok) on May 7, 2016 at 11:40am PDT

Random The More You Know?   

Please do remember we all throw up facades from time to time, so, with that thought, don’t compare yourself. I think we can all admit to a little comparison here and there, right? We have to stop that or realize we’re comparing highlights, or as they call it in second grade high points. You can’t compare other’s high points to your low points or your in the middle. How could we possibly know what goes on behind the iPhone or computer screen?

Currently, I’m wishing I could make a living doodling and hand-lettering. I’ve been working on a little something, and I know I’ve been hinting for months, but remember what I said about needing to drink from the confidence fountain and fighting off angst. But, Dean, you just said:

Life doesn’t slow down for you to catch up, waiting for the right time is the wrong way to manage time.

Yup, you’re right, and that’s why I followed up with:

Yup, I’ve done that, and I’m done.

I’m also kind of a perfectionist…

I think I’m also done with information overload too. I’ve been streaming all sorts of information to get me to a point where I will emerge as the all knowledgeable being when it comes to my craft/skill. 😀 It’s pretty laughable, right?

Currently, I’m busy with end-of-the-year school projects and other end-of-the-year school duties that are slowly growing. All of sudden everyone has project or two, and they are all due soon. Thanks!

Currently, I’ve missed out on a hot cup of coffee to talk to you, my friends. Because talking and catching up with friends means more to me than my beloved coffee. 🙂 Thank you for being a friend and caring to read what’s been up with me… currently.

XOXO